April 29 – We went to visit Annie’s family this past weekend, and I stayed within my calorie limit, but close to the max each day we were there. We didn’t get home until after midnight and the dog, as usual, woke me up at six in the morning, so I am very sleep deprived today and feeling it. I got some work done, not as much as I was hoping, went to a doctor appointment with Annie, and tonight we are going to a Paint Nite event with Yaymaker. I expect that I will likely go up in weight this week, but I’m okay with that. I know what I’m doing and my resolve doesn’t waiver. But when I’m tired, I compensate with some extra calories.

April 30 – Woke up early to go to Ottawa to help a close friend move from his place. I expected to go over in calories today because I didn’t get much sleep again, and I knew I was going to do a fair bit of physical exertion. By the end of the day, I still had calories remaining though, so I didn’t go over.

May 1 – Another month begins. Unfortunately, it also means that Annie is going away on her trip. Over seven hours of driving to do today. I ate a ton of fast food to keep going. It was rough.

May 2 – With Annie away, I don’t really feel like making a full meal, so pizza it is. I expected to only eat a few slices and split it up over a couple of days, but I ended up eating it all at lunch, supper and snack. I ended with less than 100 calories remaining.

May 3 – Feeling really down today. Mental struggles make food struggles harder. I just want to eat all the junk food. My weigh in was also not great with me being up several pounds. I just don’t feel happy. I’m struggling.